TRUST .. BIG WORD isn't it ? It's like your world is falling apart when someone destroys your trust and it's hard for you to trust that person again. Have you already experienced that your partner destroys your trust? It hurts right? Very.
In a relationship, trust is really important in order to continue thriving and growing in a healthy way. Lying, whether it's about small things or about serious things, can be one of the quickest ways to strip that needed trust from a relationship. When trust is lost, getting it back can sometimes seems like an impossible to climb.
Since JP became my bf, I gave him my full trust. I always believe in what he says because I know he will not destroy my trust. He was beyond perfection that you wouldn't think that he can lie to you or he can hurt you. When we're just starting, our relationship was very smooth. No arguments, no doubts, no lies and no broken promises. As time pass by, I can feel that there's a little change in him. He was still the sweet guy but he doesn't give you so much effort. When the two of you already planned something, he will suddenly say that he has something to do. He always did that;cancelling our date or being late. I always understand him but it can make you feel tired right? I feel that I am not important to him. That's the start of my suspicion that he might have someone else. I always look in his cellphone or when he didn't reply easily, I will get mad and we will fight in small things.
It was summer in 2013, he told me that he wanted to go to their reunion. I didn't permit him because I felt jealous about the girl that is so close to him or we called "feeling close". I trust him but not the girl. He says "okay". I felt happy because he doesn't argue more. We are texting when suddenly, he didn't reply back. I waited for his text long enough for me to decide to call his cousin. And there, I found out that he really go to their reunion without telling me. The worst thing is the girl and him are very close in the picture. The girl put her hands in the neck of my boyfriend. She's a flirt because even though she already knew that JP has a girlfriend, she keeps on following him. I was hurt and at the same time mad at him because he lied to me. He destroys my trust. He hurts me. I cried and cried until there is no more tears falling. That time, I realized that I should have not trust him. After that event, he kept on saying sorry to me but it's too hard for me to forget what he did. He says he will not do it again and that he will not lie again to me. After a long period of recovering about what happened, I forgave him and I tried to forget what he did.
I love him that's why, little by little I gave him my trust again. He already change a lot. Now, he is always there for me, he never failed to make me happy again and he became more honest to me. He gave his best effort to make me trust him again and I become mature. Mature enough to make decisions on when should I give up.
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