Broken Trust and Forgiveness

   

      

      TRUST .. BIG WORD isn't it ? It's like your world is falling apart when someone destroys your trust and it's hard for you to trust that person again. Have you already experienced that your partner destroys your trust? It hurts right? Very. 
      In a relationship, trust is really important in order to continue thriving and growing in a healthy way. Lying, whether it's about small things or about serious things, can be one of the quickest ways to strip that needed trust from a relationship. When trust is lost, getting it back can sometimes seems like an impossible to climb. 

      Since JP became my bf, I gave him my full trust. I always believe in what he says because I know he will not destroy my trust. He was beyond perfection that you wouldn't think that he can lie to you or he can hurt you. When we're just starting, our relationship was very smooth. No arguments, no doubts, no lies and no broken promises. As time pass by, I can feel that there's a little change in him. He was still the sweet guy but he doesn't give you so much effort. When the two of you already planned something, he will suddenly say that he has something to do. He always did that;cancelling our date or being late. I always understand him but it can make you feel tired right? I feel that I am not important to him. That's the start of my suspicion that he might have someone else. I always look in his cellphone or when he didn't reply easily, I  will get mad and we will fight in small things. 

       It was summer in 2013, he told me that he wanted to go to their reunion. I didn't permit him because I felt jealous about the girl that is so close to him or we called "feeling close". I trust him but not the girl. He says "okay". I felt happy because he doesn't argue more. We are texting when suddenly, he didn't reply back. I waited for his text long enough for me to decide to call his cousin. And there, I found out that he really go to their reunion without telling me. The worst thing is the girl and him are very close in the picture. The girl put her hands in the neck of my boyfriend. She's a flirt because even though she already knew that JP has a girlfriend, she keeps on following him. I was hurt and at the same time mad at him because he lied to me. He destroys my trust. He hurts me. I cried and cried until there is no more tears falling. That time, I realized that I should have not trust him. After that event, he kept on saying sorry to me but it's too hard for me to forget what he did. He says he will not do it again and that he will not lie again to me. After a long period of recovering about what happened, I forgave him and I tried to forget what he did. 

       I love him that's why, little by little I gave him my trust again. He already change a lot. Now, he is always there for me, he never failed to make me happy again and he became more honest to me. He gave his best effort to make me trust him again and I become mature. Mature enough to make decisions on when should I give up. 

     

Blogger's Note...

         "“Love is like the wind, you can't see it but you can feel it.” - Nicholas Sparks
 

         Hi everyone! I would like to say thank you for those who already read my post and for those who didn't read it yet, I hope you will find time on reading it. I am not really sure if you like my latest post because it's my first time to write something like that. I am not really fond on writing about my experiences in life and love but I want to share it with you. But of course, that blog is only a glimpse of the incoming blogs that I will post. 

       

        I will post some topics that talks about my relationship towards my family, my friends and to GOD. I will also post about my experiences in LOVE which taught me a lot in life; those crying moments, heartbreaks, and those sleepless nights. I am not saying that all my topics about love is sad. I will also share  my happy memories of being in love.

       

 Just wait for my next post and I will try my best to write something you can relate on.

ENJOY!  :)

             

When your CRUSH becomes your BOYFRIEND

          It all started back when I was in 2nd year high school. He is a transferee from Bukidnon city. I didn't notice him that much, until one time, our teacher told us that if someone can answer her question, he/she will be exempted to the quiz. All of us became quiet. No one dares to answer her question. Then suddenly, someone raised his hand and confidently stand up to answer the question. All of us look at him especially me and that's the time i noticed HIM, the boy who inspires me. After that event, I started noticing him or maybe i should say I started having a crush on him. Every time I see him, there is the feeling of shyness and awkwardness. Days passed, my routine is always like that; going to school, listen to the discussions, and make stolen glances to him. I am always inspired on going to school because i know he will be there. We were classmates but we didn't have time to talk nor know much about each other. My feelings grew more because my friends is always teasing me to him which they shouldn't. I am afraid that my crush will knew about my feelings for him because he might ignored or stay away from me. 
            It was February 6, 2010 when I received a text message from ********304 with a "HI" on it. I was curious of who was it and was expecting that he might be the one who texted me. When I discovered that it was him, I was really surprised, at the same time happy because my crush text me and not only that, he wanted us to be friends. We started communicating and getting to know each other stage. Moreover, we became close in school. Every time I wake up in the morning, there is always a text from him greeting me "Good Morning" or "Rise and Shine Ms. Beautiful" with a smiley face. That simple text or greetings from him can really make me smile and completes my day. I don't anymore feel that awkwardness because he almost know everything about me as I am to him. Our friends did noticed that we are always together, always talking, laughing with each other which we didn't used to do. They always tease us when we are together. I am happy because he is comfortable to be with and he can always make me smile even in his simple ways. It is really friendship all along but one day, he admitted that he had a special feelings for me, not as a friend but more than that. Spell speechless .... R-O-N-A. If you could see my face after knowing that, my face was really priceless! It was such a wonderful feeling knowing that we both feels the same way to each other. He said to me that he was afraid of admitting his feelings for me because I might stay away from him and afraid that our friendship will end because of that. I told him that I'm not angry of what he admitted because I feel the same way too. After that big revelation, nothing changes on how we treat each other. He is still the person who always made my day.

    Our friendship stage progress into a new level which is what we called Boyfriend/Girlfriend stage. That was March 10, 2010 when he became my boyfriend. He always do his best to make me happy with all his efforts. He always proves that he will be a good boyfriend to me. That was really a dream come true that my crush becomes my boyfriend. Through the years, months, days that we've been together, we already faced challenges that helps our relationship to be strong. We always put in our mind that whatever challenges that will come to us,we will not give up and we must on hold on to each other. Until now, we are still holding to each other, making happy memories together.
         I can't tell that we are meant to be together forever but for now, I'll  just take chances and enjoy the days of being with him.